And They Said The Questions Were Simple

What change do you want to see in your personal life - right now?
I want more friends, more people to have an actual conversation with. I want to taste liberty, practice independence, and speak inspiration.

What change do you want to see in your community & country by 2015?
Less car, more pedestrians and people with bicycle. People will smile to random strangers they meet on street. Schools won't push the students to run merely for scores and the students will be mature and open-minded enough to complement the system. Adults won't lose their sense of humor and teenagers will keep themselves posted with the news because they know it's important. Local TV series won't suck as bad as today and more people will listen to The Beatles.

What sort of programmes or ideas of campaigns would you support?
Generally, any program that leads toward good changes, revolution if possible.
Specially, programs that help people realize how big the role of love in our lives is, the ones that help people rediscover the art of being happy, and the art of laughing.

Rapid Questions

1. Do you still talk to the person you fell the hardest for?
I don't know. No?

2. Latest you stayed up in the past week?
Ten-ish, I guess.

3. Does your phone ring in the middle of the night often?
Nah.

4. Is there any emotion you're trying to avoid right now?
Yes.

5. Do you hate the last guy you had a conversation with?
Nope.

6. Is it cute when a boy/girl calls you babe?
If we're in a relationship, and if he speaks in grammatically correct English, yes.

7. Do you believe that everything happens for a reason?
...Kind of?

8. Do you have a brother?
Yes, he bought me Barbie as a birthday present once :-D

9. Has anyone told you they would never leave and left?
Ha ha fuck yes. You shouldn't hold on to words.

10. Have you ever liked someone older than you?
Yes.

11. Rent a movie or go to movies?
Both are okay.

12. Are you good at hiding your feelings?
Hmmm not really but I'm getting better.

13. Who do you want to kiss?
The last person I kissed.

14. How did you feel when you woke up today?
School-ish?

15. Have you ever slow danced without any music?
Nope, how do you do that?

16. What would your parents have named you if you were born the opposite sex?
I don't know, never asked.

17. How long does it take you in the shower?
15 if I keep the hair dry.

18. How ticklish are you?
Not quite, the spots are very specific.

19. If you could change your eye color, what would you change it to?
Gray.

20. If you could be anywhere in the world right now, where would it be?
NY, please.

21. Did you have an imaginary friend when you were younger?
Nope.

22. The last person you argued with?
I can't seem to recall.

23. Is any part of your body sore?
Nnno...?

24. Would you ever consider piercing your lip?
No thanks.

25. Do you find the opposite sex confusing?
Not really.

26. Are you proud of the person you've become?
There are just too many ways to see it through, and they all give different answers.

27. Could you go the rest of your life without smoking weed?
Yes.

28. Do you like/love someone right now?
I'm not sure.

29. How's your week going?
It's only been Monday, so...

30. Will your next kiss be a mistake?
Who knows.

31. Where are your siblings?
Bandung.

32. Do you want kids?
Sure.

33. What were your first thoughts this morning?
"Okay I can get up twenty minutes late cause I'm taking a cab today. What time is it? Oh good, let's sleep some more."

34. Has anyone said they love you in the last week?
Well I received some love.

35. Do you like waking up in the morning to find that you have new texts?
A bit.

36. Are you friends with someone who's older than you?
Yeah.

37. How late did you stay up last night and why?
Ten something, cause I got school the next day.

38. Who made you laugh today?
XII IPA A, mostly :-DD

39. What are your plans for tomorrow?
Nothing.

40. Have you ever broken someone's heart?
Yes. And I'm sorry.

41. Would you make a good parent?
Hopefully.

42. Do you like to hold hands?
I do.

43. Are you happy with life?
Haha I'm trying to be.

44. Ever thrown a phone at someone?
No, that would hurt a lot.

45. Do you think trust is a big deal?
Fucking big.

46. Has anyone ever tried to ruin a relationship you were in ?
Haha this is funny. I don't know.

47. This survey gets a little personal can you handle it?
Why not.

48. How fast does your mood change?
Snap.

49. I bet you missed someone today?
Yes, fuck you.

50. What did you do today?
Tried to get some sushi -_-

51. Do you believe everyone deserves a second chance?
No, that's a joke. You have to earn it, the hard way.

52. Missing someone you shouldn't?
Are you fucking kidding me?

53. What's up with you and your Number 1?
I don't even know.

54. Do you have a best friend?
Fortunately.

55. Do you know anyone with the same birthday as you?
Raja -_-

56. Where did you get the shirt you're wearing right now?
It's my sister's/brother's.

57. What are you doing this weekend?
Nothing. My life's getting boring.

58. What was the worst mistake of your life?
I'd rather not say.

59. Are you an alcoholic?
I could be.

60. Do you know someone in jail?
He's out.

61. Do you like to sleep?
Hell yes.

62. Do you like hugs?
They're comforting.

63. Are you a patient person?
Not quite.

64. Do you enjoy late night phone conversations?
Yes.

65. Were you happy when you woke up today?
A bit.

66. Strawberry milkshake or banana pancakes?
Shakes please.

67. Last movie you saw in theaters?
Second to last would be cin(T)a.

68. Burger King or Wendy's?
Burger King.

69. What are you doing right now?
Nothing.

70. Don't tell me lies, so where's your man?
Have none.

71. Have you ever had a best friend who was of the opposite sex?
As far as I'm concerned, nope.

72. Has anyone told you they loved you in the last week?
Yes.

73. Have you ever kissed under water?
Never.

74. Do you have to plug your nose while swimming under water?
Nope.

75. Are you a heart breaker?
I don't know how to respond to that.

76. Do you know anyone who committed suicide?
A friend said she wanted to, but thank God she didn't.

77. Is it ever too late to apologize?
I don't know about too late, but there are moments when it's useless.

78. Your ex calls wanting to hang out. What do you do?
Hang up.

79. Camping with a ton of friends or hotel with a few friends?
Hotel with a few friends.

80. Who can make you feel better in a difficult situation?
Me, with a little help from my friends :-)

I Don't Know Why I Post This

Today I met him at the corridor. I was alone and so was he. We made an eye contact, but I chose to stay silent. After several steps which gradually cut our distance, he greeted me. I didn't know whether he smiled or not, I didn't wear my glasses.

Using a split second as effective as possible, I chose to respond it. As cold as I could. So I just put my hand up, covering half my face from the side. I didn't smile, I didn't say a word. I passed by. And that was pretty much it.

What bothers me is that I can't stop thinking about it. No, not in an I-want-him-back kind of way, not in a omg-my-crush-says-hi-to-me kind of way, not even in a can-we-really-be-friends? kind of way. My thinking is twisted, it's complex, I don't know.

Is this what having a past is? Forgive and forget totally sound like bullshit right now. I've stopped holding on to cliches, they don't work on me. It was stupid how I thought I'd have one of those clean break ups with him, how I tried to remain friends with all the acts and whatnot. I mean, look at what happened.

Really, this is not me caring about what's happening on the other side. I'm worried about me, worried that his stain can't be entirely gone--which is what I'm working on. I want this completely out of me, but see what those stupid seconds do to me.

This is annoying. I want to be done dealing with this. Ass.

Get The Joke?

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...If you do then visit Toothpaste for Dinner :--DD

To Fifteen Fine Names

Write 15 things that you want to say to 15 different people, one for each. It could be a confession, an opinion, a thought, anything. However, you can't write something you already confessed or something you already said, it has to be something new. Tell them which is whom if you want to, but you don't have to.

In this post (in random order) :
Rizka Dwi Putri, Mutiara Ramadhiani, Istina Dwi P, Hartsaniya, Rachmat Lianda, Andika Chaktiaji Z, Naila Rahmania, Ferinda P Lestari, Farah Nabila, Rizka Ratmilia, Prathito A Wisambodhi, Tika Meutia Lubis, Torik Danumaya, Osha Adyancha, Nasya Daniya Marhani

1. I wish we could have a heart-to-heart talk without having to be awkward about it. I've made several attempts but so far none succeeded.
   
2. I love talking and sharing something personal with you cause you always have something good to say, something far from the typical "Sabar ya,", something that makes sense, something that I need to hear.
3. What I see is, you're pretty. Even when you say you're having a bad hair day. It's funny how you not even slightly think that you are. But I guess that's also what makes you pretty.
4. Sometimes I feel like you don't pay enough attention to what I'm saying. But nonetheless, for me you're still my best friend, a nice person to talk to, and the one I'll turn to when something big, good or bad, is happening to me.
5. It's amazing that no matter how cheesy a story is, as long as you laugh when it's told, it counts as a good one. That's how great your laugh is.
6. You're unique, and your uniqueness is the kind of unique I like. And it's cool how you managed to keep it that way.
7. I think you're probably a genius. If yes, it's awesome how someone can be genius and witty at the same time.
8. I have faith in you, I know you'll be great whatever it is that you're doing. So don't mind their sayings, go for your dream.
9. I love the way you talk and write. I think you're cool and I like it how sharing something unfortunate with you can be so fun.
10. Somehow I miss how close we used to be. I want to share stories with you but our current distance kinda hold me back from telling literally everything.
    
11. I never know I can be friends with you. Hanging out with you gives me a different kind of fun.
12. I did feel bad. But however I don't regret doing what I did cause talking and joking the way we do now is so much better than how things were before. You're great.
13. The way you are is funny. It makes me feel like I have to be dependable when you're around.
14. What you say is rarely what I want to hear. But I like being your friend, and I like it how what you type always sounds so friendly.
15. Seeing you makes me feel optimistic in a weird way. I feel like if you can get there, so can I. The thought of you getting there first is annoying, but it makes me run faster.
    

Which one is yours?

Ten to One

Ten Things I Wish I Could Say to People
1. "Oh kabar gue juga baik, gue di stei itb sekarang hehe lo?"
2. "I'm on the subway, will meet you up in five."
3. "Hey wanna meet up and just talk? Great. Yeah, the usual place. Is eight good? Nice. Okay, bye~"
4. "Your outfit is ugly."
5. "You're so gay."
6. "Your loss, not mine."
7. "Lo liat muka gue. Ada ga gue peduli?"
8. "I brought my car, don't worry about me."
9. "I'm going shopping. This client at work is impossible."
10. "You just made the biggest mistake of your life. You'll regret it."

Nine things about myself
1. I can't stand songs with low bit-rate. They're irritating.
2. I can't cook but I'd love to learn how to.
3. In a hurry, it only take me approximately 3 minutes to get ready to go out.
4. I have weird fascination over Vaseline's petroleum jelly.
5. I wanna try staying at an apartment by myself for a few months.
6. I don't mind going out by myself. No, actually I like it.
7. I really really want to redecorate my room.
8. I want to live abroad.
9. I pick chocolate milk over the plain one.

Eight ways to win my heart
1. Have cool taste of music.
2. Count loose long talks at a coffee shop as a precious moment.
3. Ask me on a random day out, wherever, doing nothing. And make it fun.
4. Have sushi and frozen yogurt with me.
5. Write something for or about me.
6. Surprise me with something nice, and sweet.
7. Cook something that's meant only for me.
8. Tell me something that you know about me that I don't know you do know.

Seven things that cross my mind a lot:
1. Usm itb and other uni exams.
2. My weight.
3. Marshall Eriksen.
4. Tweeting and blogging.
5. Cola.
6. Frozen yogurt.
7. Me.

Six things I do before I fall asleep
1. Salat al 'Isha.
2. Wash my face, sometimes brush my teeth.
3. Prepare school's stuff for tomorrow.
4. Turn the lights off.
5. Stare at the ceiling.
6. Listen to music.

Five places I want to visit
1. New York.
2. German.
3. McLaren's Bar.
4. Beach in winter.
5. My future home.

Four things I'm wearing right now
1. White tee.
2. Black shorts.
3. Green sandals.
4. Undies.

Three bands that I listen to often (Currently)
1. The Beatles.
2. Arctic Monkeys.
3. The 88.

Two things I want to do before I die
1. Make a big career achievement.
2. Build a beautiful house with my partner somewhere sweet.

One confession
1. Usually I hate sharing earphones, it limits my space of movements.

What Sounds Easy When It Actually Isn't

You have to know when to stop. When to stop giving a crap.
It's when something won't do you any good, if not eating you slowly alive.
It's when something is none of your business and getting involved won't offer you any benefits anyway.
It's when something is a lot less important than what you actually hold in hands--but you're too busy giving a crap to recognise it.
It's when you're carried away by your emotions and inevitably losing touch with being logical.
It's when keeping your thought to yourself is not that easy.
It's when you're not in control of your own happiness and wrath and you're not even aware of that.
It's that stupid thing you hardheadedly hold on to though the world screams "LET IT GO!" to you, in caps lock.

"Other far more exciting stuffs are on their way.They're getting there. As soon as they can.
Be patient please."

Shot by Rachmat Lianda

Some Days Are Just Different

Since I'm a big fan of pictures, I'll leave you with some.

The best thing about this trip is the perfect timing. Stresses are out and I'm ready for school (but not midterm), people's faces starting to be blurry anyways, got to see them soon!
And hey, how's your holiday?

Credit for the pretty ones goes to Rachmat Lianda

A Quick Hi

Hey I just got back from a short trip abroad. Was having an awesome time, feet-tiring miles of walk, the best salmon teriyaki so far, and not to forget the stress-relieving paper bags :-3 But more on that later.

I went to buy a cake for my 23-year-old brother earlier tonight.

Wishing him a splendid 24th year of life before 30th September comes up. Have a nice one, Brah.

I'd like to keep on but this got to be short cause I'm having a bit of neck situation here. Tilting my head is not that easy right now, pffh. Well anyways, have a nice end of September people!

P.S. Will type more soon :-)

An Old Draft?

It's silly how people build up their own set, plot the story as how they see it will met up with their ego best. Putting people here and there as this and that so that the story will be dramatic enough to color their life, so that the "Finally" they're pursuing after will look beautiful and, I don't know, maybe good enough?

Okay. Enjoy your happy ending, be thankful for it, whatever. But you know what? How you tell your story all over town is not okay. Don't you feel it? Your lines are an insult. It's like crying "Oh no my ass is so biggg~," in front of someone who weigh twice--or maybe thrice--you do, except it's far much worse. Stop creating twists for your own satisfaction, if you only wanna be one of The Goods then don't even bother starting a story.

And no, don't ever, ever, ever again say that you've tried these shoes. It's an even bigger insult.